and if i could be the master of definitions and good at putting thoughts into words i would be happy. no not happy, things would be easier. or will i ever be satisfied.

I just realized realistic things I never let myself notice before. It's not a good idea to get stuck, I must switch a few things off. I probably will not regret things in 50 years but I will for sure if I continue like this

i'm not depressed i just really really really don't want to die

at some point you may think that this is the life and you walk around and smile and everything but suddenly you are attacked. it is best for all to blame the attack on the chemical reactions in your body

on purpose i think in good ways by educating my brain to be consistent and clutter-free, and i will get praised now, not punished anymore

when my biggest problems are structured like the word "object" in concretewriting, i'm delighted. those are the best problems one can ever struggle with, for greater problems are not close to being dealt by human

call it whatever you feel like calling it today, change your mind tomorrow if you want that's OK by me